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Ever and againI fear that the amount of money I make/will make, will become what I judge myself on to have been successfull or not.This sends shivers into my nuts and bolts. The American way of things- or at least the desi version of the AWOT-gain leading to wish,and wish leading to gain; credit, credit traps- muddies up the horizon. Like a creatinine clearance curve, it is the initial few steps you take that are critical to get you on or off the Interstate 90 of your life in the US. For once you have the small luxuries sorted out- Toyota Camry, decent house, purchasing power of nonparity- there seems to be no end as to how much you can want or buy.It is excellent if you don't have the monetary means- it only helps build your credit score. It makes me crave for the dirt and mud and smoke of home at times.I feel more comfortable dealing with mud and grime than greenback slime.