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Ever and againI fear that the amount of money I make/will make, will become what I judge myself on to have been successfull or not.This sends shivers into my nuts and bolts. The American way of things- or at least the desi version of the AWOT-gain leading to wish,and wish leading to gain; credit, credit traps- muddies up the horizon. Like a creatinine clearance curve, it is the initial few steps you take that are critical to get you on or off the Interstate 90 of your life in the US. For once you have the small luxuries sorted out- Toyota Camry, decent house, purchasing power of nonparity- there seems to be no end as to how much you can want or buy.It is excellent if you don't have the monetary means- it only helps build your credit score. It makes me crave for the dirt and mud and smoke of home at times.I feel more comfortable dealing with mud and grime than greenback slime.

ICU meanderings.....

It has been unusually light this week at the ICU. Have to say thanks for that. I have a loong post thats waiting to be edited and posted....haven't gotten the time to put digit to keyboard for that.Have been diligently enrolled in the mundanities of living the American way. And winter gnaws at the spirit of existence like dementors sucking your souls into their nothingness.Activity peters down to BMR levels( basics mein raada I mean) besides an occassional visit to the gym.The snot that maketh you dries in your nose and your lips shrivel like the leaves whose chlorophyllosophy has been made mockery of by mercury falls and snow flakes.

A slowness comes.......
When thyroxine and cortisol struggle
Against the dominatrix chill
Fat cells fondueplicate, mornings are stiff
Brain is numb,Where's the strife,
This lardaceous life.