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Some things in random order..no particular pattern ..as they occurred to me-

Yagnopavveta dharanam done. Cut some corners on specifics.Doesn't it sometimes feel reassuring that we choose to do that. I can still remember stuff from sandhyavandana that taatha taught us.Wonder if taatha's favorite disciple Denish remembers still.It ain't so reassuring that he is not around no more. There is a generation that shall not know...their inspiring moments, childhoods that they will remember shall be other ones. Life will go its random course, some will remember, some wont. And it really wont matter.

" Kahi karaycha aahe re, atta jidd aahe. Atta vel aahe, nahi kela tar kadhi karnaar. Mee nahi kela tar kon karnaar"

Shall be repeating residency here in the US. I am so thankful I did residency in India, at KEM. Just as I tell people at BJ, you wont know guys, nor can I tell you in so many words what an experience it was; I guess they are right in telling me the same about theirs; and so are people who will tell me about their residency here in the US. I also worked as a lecturer in BJ. I guess it never substitutes for the experience of residency. Of course there are mistakes I did during my tenure at KEM which I hope to improve upon here. I had emotional upheavals, I cringed at the futility of what we do after pati passed away. And I could never feel what it meant when tatha died within a year. Existentialist questions gnawed at my thought process.But I learnt one important thing.There will be another emerg day. There will be admissions again, some bad, some good. Some with less expressed emotion, some overwhelmed by it all.And if I am not up to my own questions how will I answer others questions.

I do not need to follow what is said, written or is common norm.I have to do what I have to do. And then live with it.

Remembered someone from the past(MS). 'Tee geli tevha rimjhim pauus ninadat hota.'
I don't know if I was wrong.But I have taken the right lessons from it all.


I have to decide on Jan to June. I need the money. But I shall never have the time again for MSF.

Will learn to play the sax some day.Like Kadri Gopalnath.

Life and career are different things. Repeat.Career and life are two different things.

Sriram is getting married today.On Raksha bandhan day!! I feel guilty for missing interacting with this group of my friends( except Gotya ).Wish you a happy married life dude.

Places you loafed around as a kid suddenly seem so small and different when you grow to 5 ft 10 and a few graduate degrees old. The Shiva temple at RP seemed so cramped for space when I visited the place after...so many years; the banyan tree not so big to grab a branch and swing on, the parapet wall not such an ordeal to scale, the gully too small for a decent cricket game except underarm one tappa out. Sriram would say that we should have never grown up. I don't know if he still says that.