With cold coffee at an unearthly hour, after a looong time...

I always thought writing a paper while doing residency in India was tough and that you would never find the time in the midst of all the emerg/post emerg/pre emerg cycle of actiwitty. I never thought handling 80 patients and seeing consults, doing procedures rat-a-tat-tat-tat was ever an issue then. If yo get free time, you would rather spend it on watching a movie at Sterling or Regal and fine dining at Crystal or Cafe Mondegar or Bhagat Tarachand. And why not wake early, not to do schlolarly activity, but to go to the railway ground to run a couple of three kilometres every now and then, coz you could always take a siesta by the side room after you do the routine ward work.And so when push comes to shove with your theses, you run to DP Singh at TISS or try out trial versions of SPSS really trusting your acumen and luck with the games of trial and error and hoping your p value works out.

I thought writing a paper while in the US would be easy- especially with the fact that residency would not be such a pain in the derriere, time would be at more surplus since management questions wont take forever and clicks of the finger that underlined pages after pages of Harrison would make ailments vanish.

Alas, here 10 patients tire you out. The greatest task at hand seems to be jousting against all the data thrown at you wondering what is relevant and what is non necessary, trying to figure which among the past medical issues needs more digging and which is just another episode in the unending treadmill test that healthcare is viewed as in this developed world.

Not staying in campus- why call it residency then?- cuts you off from working when you like to, and residency becomes a stretched out 8-5 routine where you do a bit extra in form of calls, signouts and all that.

The task of the day is writing a note in the first year, dispo in second year, dispo and managing the census in a smart alecky way in third year. Abraham Verghese's i-patient is very much existent on a busy day when time is at premium and as vitals and I/O are available on COWS- confessions from interns! Work becomes "work" in the true Dilbertamerican way; people judge you, and you need to be mindful of their judgements aware that they have a right to judge you in this 360 degree assessment cumulonimbus thats so pervasive. Uniformity is encouraged as it means productivity, lateralness is frowned upon, protocols are gospel truths.

So when do you sit and analyse what you saw and write abut it? I guess that comes when you do bench work research and stay poor, for the smart ones are seeing more patients in 15 min encounters and making more money!!

Some of my friends who never did clinical work in India do not feel that the emperor's clothes aren't there at all. I guess working in different scenarios gives you spectacles that you can choose to wear or toss, for quite too often WYSInotWYG.

Have a weekend off after some time. Will try to submit something I have been sitting on for some time. Again, I also need to enjoy - when will I have a weekend off again!!

Whats going on.....